Justice with Judge Jeanine

Judge Jeanine addressed the Penn State controversy on this weeks show. She brought profound insight into this hideous crime. Always an advocate for the underdog, she gave a powerful voice to Gerald Sandusky's victims. Her summation "Innocence Shattered" left me in tears long after the show was over.

Gerald Sandusky former Penn State football coach has been charged with multiple counts of child molestation that spans about 15 years. He was seen by grad student Mike McQueary sodomizing a 10-year old boy in the locker room showers. It's reported that Sandusky used the Second Mile charity to find and abuse at risk kids.

Judge Jeanine's words were so poignant. She said the kids from this charity were simply happy if they got a new pair of shoes. But instead Gerald Sandusky stole their innocence. When she spoke about how the 10-year old child must have felt knowing an adult (McQueary) saw him being abused and walked away; I was stunned.

She's the first person to point out what it must feel like to have a grown up know and do nothing to help. Until now its been about the adults involved and how could they do it, what motivated them, why people weren't arrested. It took me awhile to recover from Judge Jeanine's summation. There is a level of distrust and pain that goes beyond the abuse when the child knows an adult knew and did nothing to help. There is a loneliness that can't be verbalized and is usually never acknowledged--until now.

I envied the boys because Judge Jeanine spoke up for them. There is some healing when a victim's pain is acknowledged. She gave them respect and value as human beings which is often lost forever after sexual abuse. Though she was speaking for the Sandusky victims, the little girl in me was cheering her on. As Judge Jeanine was berating those who stood by and did nothing, she was healing the hearts of some very battered souls.

If you are interested in learning more about these crimes you can read the full grand jury testimony or view Judge Jeanine's complete summation.

You can catch Justice with Judge Jeanine Saturday nights at 9:00 p.m. ET on Fox News Channel. She's also on Facebook and Twitter.

Read more: http://blogcritics.org/video/article/justice-with-judge-jeanine-november-12/#ixzz1eBEJEuW7

Stuff

Update on the Henry situation...the vet board couldn't do anything but told me they didn't like how the emergency clinic does things with payments. They especially didn't agree with charging extra to hold your pet while its put to sleep. They sent me to the attorney general. They took my case and tried but the vet clinic said I knew about the charges before any proceedures. Of course I'd pay the extra to hold him they had me by the balls I didn't have a choice. The attorney general suggests I get a lawyer to persue it. But I'd only get back twenty five dollars so the cost of a lawyer on principle is beyond my means. I emailed my congressman to see who sets the guidelines for veterinarians what is legal and not...waiting to hear back.

I made a video for Judge Jeanine Pirro...interesting for me to see a white lady who has devoted her life to help victims...hell I told my mom what was happening to me and she didn't do anything...I just viewed white ladies as passive or bitchy. Pirro has a balance I didn't think was possible...she's scary tough but also compassionate enough to cry for others...yeah never thought a white lady like this existed. She's gone through hell in her personal life but still gives all she's got to the underdog. Really cool to not only know about her but have the opportunity to 'talk' to her. She's pretty awesome check her out if you haven't! Go to my Youtube ohioruthie to watch the video.

Waiting for test results today...been on thyroid meds for years and now it decided to get funky with results that aren't suppose to be possible..had an ultrasound friday and waiting for results today...my calcium numbers are good so even if they find a tumor it shouldn't be cancer!

The animals are doing great...Indy is making a lot of progress..he didn't know affection and is now loving to be kissed between the eyes...he's still very afraid of hugs so that will take more time. Natalie is simply not friendly to others...looks like I can't take in anymore for awhile...I don't see any of these guys getting adopted anytime soon.

My amazon parrot is at her age limit..she acts like she is going to die one day and comes to life the next..she just sleeps a lot..she's her usual self when she's awake. Not putting her to sleep simply because she's tired..no one would do that for meLOL!!!!

Be nice to others...before I push for a new law that states we can slap stupid...I really lose patience with stupid!!!

Time

Time gets away from me. I meant to post more often but there just isn't enough time. I'm at the final step with the vet clinic...did the protest, exhausted better business bureau...received a case number from the veterinary board a couple of weeks ago. So I'm waiting to see what they are going to do if anything. I offered reasonable solutions so I hope they take them into consideration.

Indy formerly Boots is great with me but wants to eat the rest of the human population. He's already 8 years old so he's probably here for the rest of his life. He isn't aggressive from bad training he's aggressive from years of abuse...poor baby.

Toby is blind in one eye now. He had popped his eye half way out after surgery to put it back in he's blind in that eye. He's adjusting really well. He's 10 years old so I was expecting some real adjustment issues but he's surprised me.

I'm doing a big push for more items for the fundraiser...vet bills are an ongoing thing in rescue.

His Name Was Henry

Stark County Vet Emergeny Clinic...Notice how it says EMERGENCY in the name. I had a very sick puppy who was throwing up blood. They refused to see him without payment up front. They accept paper checks to hold for two weeks but refused to hold my check card info in the same way. I had to sit in my car with my puppy throwing up BLOOD for two hours as I tried to find someone who could give them their credit card information over the phone. Over $70 to just walk in the door, another $70 for a test and $75 to hold him as they put him to sleep BECAUSE I couldn't give them $1500 in FULL at midnight to try and save his life. Oh yeah their business cards say they love pets. It should say they love money. I"ve never experienced so much greed in my life. All because they would only hold a paper check and not a check card info..if you aren't rich and its after hours in Stark county our animals are going to die. He was only 7 weeks old hadn't even had a chance to live yet.

I also want to add that the cost to kill him was going to be $50 but because I wanted to hold him I had to pay $75 they had to put in IV line so they "wouldn't accidently stick me with the needle". I had to leave and pay for this all in advance when I came back he wagged his tail a little and gave me a little kiss. He was still full of love even though deathly ill.

I think this clinic needs to allow all forms of payment to give people of all income levels a chance to save their pets life. As it stands its the haves vs. the have nots even for pets lives. I had emailed with a vet blogger his answers still all pointed to the rich having emergency vet care and nothing for the poor. I'm trying to get this clinic to change their policy. I won't stop til they do in memory of Henry.

Entitlement

It's been a crazy week. People have been pissing me off almost everywhere I've gone. There is such an arrogance in the air. At the grocery store there are express lines for 20 items or less. I was there forever because a woman with a overflowing cart decided she could use that isle because it was open and didn't want to wait. Half the cart was for someone else so after she got her 40 items the other person got their 50. So time for two different people to pay.

I was going to the pharmacy and got stuck behind a car who was stuck behind a car that parked diagonally in the street meaning cars in both directions had to wait...why? because as she was pulling out she realized she forgot to put her trash out. Trash doesn't come til the morning and she had her dog in the car so she'd be returning today. So there was no need to take over the road while tending to her chores.

Coming home trying not to take too long because I have a new puppy rescue, I make good time only to be met with a car blocking my driveway. I beep the horn they come out in a couple of minutes. They don't get in the car, first they have to get a car seat out of the car and put it in another car. Then without looking at me but looking bent out of shape and bothered they finally left. Not even a wave of apology!

I don't understand how people feel its okay to be so rude. Do they not feel bad? I don't get it! I'm always aware of those around me and don't like holding anyone up. Even when an item doesn't scan in the store I apologize to the others for having to wait for a price check and its not even my fault. I believe in karma so I'm sure they all will be given experiences to make them learn to be more thoughtful. I just don't understand how adults can justify being so rude!

I mentioned a new puppy rescue. Her name is Anna Belle she's a hound/border collie mix we think. She's about 14wks old. Robert P sponsored her so he named her. She's been scared most of the day but seems to finally be curious enough to look around. She spent most of the time on the couch I was calling her my couch potato my little tater tot!LOL The picture ended up at the top of the blog. She's a cutie!

Puppy Kisses

Riley is having surgery again today..she ripped her internal stitches after her spay so the vet is going back in to close it. Her outer stitches had healed fine. Can't wait to have her back home. The puppy picture is of Winston..he's the current rescue puppy. He's six weeks old and seven pounds. He's a pure lab...yes people are mean to purebred pups too. His litter contained two yellow, two black and two chocolate. I can only handled one at a time. I picked this one because he was making the biggest fuss to get my attention.

Someone dumped them at 5 and a half weeks...legally we don't adopt out til 8wks. Gives me time to work with him. Since he was taken so young from his mom he hasn't learned some things...so he's food aggressive. Pups learn to share and how not to bite so hard from play within the litter. So this kind of thing can effect a dog its entire life. People really need to think..if they'd spay and neuter they wouldn't have puppies.

I do admit Winston (named by the lady who sponsored the cost of his rescue and vet check) is so cute I just want to eat him up..he's cute!!! I hope to find him a great home :)

Reflections

Tomorrow will be a year since Sara died. We were friends since we were born. I never imagined life without her. She was family. She was a kind, compassionate person who would stop to help a stranger. She died from pancreatic cancer. She survived less than two years from the time of diagnosis.

Both my parents are gone. Aunt Doll followed my mom to heaven within a year. Siblings at various states of contact are scattered around the state and country.

I often think if I didn't have animal rescue I would live in a constant state of fear. People/life so unpredictable. I had a friend since I was 19 who recently stopped talking to me because I had to steal a animal in order to save it. She can't get passed the idea that I would just steal from someone. I didn't take jewels,etc I couldn't let the animal die. Even knowing it would cause me to lose my long time friend, I'd do it all over again. The animal is physically okay now but will always be mental due to starvation.

People can be such a disappointment so I'm trying to be more cautious not allowing such judgemental people in my life. I guess that person was never a friend they were just someone I knew for many years. She obviously wasn't a real friend and doesn't get it and never will. I thought she was a better person than she proved to be.

I have a neurological disorder that flares up with stress. I've relapsed a lot the past couple of months. I can't have a full blown relapse because I've developed an allergy to the cure. This syndrome causes my brain to swell, nerves in face and neck to swell and become extremely painful. Facial paralysis, dizziness, hearing loss. Thankfully the relapses are minor, painful but not full blown symptoms. Since becoming allergic to the cure I asked the ER doctor what will they do. He said never have a full blown relapse. I said well what if...he said they'd give me the medicine and other meds to prevent anaphylactic shock and hope for the best. It's hard to avoid stress but I try. I do have medicine I take as soon as I feel a relapse starting. So far the meds take care of things in a couple of days.

I do my best to find ways to relax, deep breathe,etc. Life is just stressful. I always try to find the good and focus on what I have control over. I live in a small town and I know many of my neighbors. My neighborhood has changed so much over the years. Many people have moved. Some talking about moving. I guess the underlying stress for me is being alone. No real sense of connection. So I focus on saving animals they are the best cure for self pity. I love animals, people and life. I find something to laugh at in almost any situation. I just sometimes feel a disconnect. I'm close to many but I really wish to belong.

Nightmares

I have so many nightmares that involve me trying to save an animal. Often there is just one thing getting in my way something simple like a lost address. I realize living with, caring for and adopting out rescued animals is probably the biggest cause of these nightmares. I know I am one person and can't save them all. I do my best.

Today something I read won't stop running through my head. It makes my stomach hurt. Someone described witnessing a dog beating. He said the worst was afterwards. The dog sitting outside with his head against the railing and just shaking. My heart breaks for these animals. I want to hug them all. It's hard to read these stories. Such raw fear for these animals.

I currently have two animals up for adoption. Both have survived a lot. A cat that was starved and tortured. A puppy so scared even standing up to pick her up will cause her to go into a yelping frenzy trying to get away and hide. I just don't understand how people could be so mean.

There is evil in this world that people just overlook. Anyone who hurts and animal is a coward they want to hurt something that can't fight back. They often will beat children too.

It doesn't help that even our President Obama praises an ex-con that viciously tortured animals and laughed as it happened. Until this kind of thing stops, there isn't any hope for a civilized society. We can't reward evil and expect others to strive for compassion.

I guess I really shouldn't call what happens to me while I sleep nightmares...nightmares are just dreams...not real. What I see in my sleep is real for proof google any animal rescue and read the stories.

The two new broken hearts in my care are mending...slowly but there has been progress. They seem happy to see me even when I wake up in the morning...funny considering they've been sleeping right next to me...but they greet me like I've been away a long time. With this love comes trust...and then I must trust those who will adopt them to make sure they never hurt again. That is truly the hardest part...because even with the best precautions...you never know.

Rescue is a hard life, what we see, hear about, deal with first hand...is hard but worth it all. There is nothing like the first time a rescue demonstrates trust...they have such resilient little souls.

Crazy Day

Spent a frantic morning trying to find a rescue to pick up puppy Natalie's sister. She was scheduled to die on friday. Thankfully someone picked her up. I wouldn't have let her die but wanted to see if someone else could get her first. And they did..yay!

I scrubbed and vacuumed today. As I was washing the stove I realized when I use the sink the water ends up all over the floor. Half the sink is broken and now the other side isn't working right. For some reason its pouring out a section of the piping and tightening,etc doesn't stop it. So it really pissed me off. I mean I have to get the roof tarped because of a leak and now the freaking sink is busted. So I can only wash dishes once a day and then mop the floor afterwards because all the water will be on the floor. I don't have any money so that's just how it goes. I tried to contact low income help but for various reasons I don't qualify.

Then when I took Riley to the vet to get her stitches out from being spayed, she is wearing a belly band now. Vet thinks the internal stitches ripped and she will probably need surgery again next week. She's bound for a week to see if that helps but when you press on it you can feel the sides of the muscle and it just goes straight up after that..poor dog! She doesn't seem to be in pain so I'm grateful for that fact. She's keeping the bandage on so far but its hard to keep her from playing and it moves. We are doing our best.

Overall a puppy's life was saved today..so all in all it was a good day.

Natalie

Natalie is a Valentine's Day rescue. She is ten weeks old and 11 lbs she has her first set of shots. My vet thinks she's probably a shepherd/hound/husky mix. She has one brown eye and the other one is half brown and blue. She is the most frightened puppy yet. She likes to cuddle but is afraid to have me walk or stand near her. She will run and try to hide. But she's coming around. The vet says Natalie has kennel cough. She's taking antibiotics twice a day for ten days. She's still adoptable she just needs to be the only dog in the home while she is recovering. I hope to find her a really good home soon!

Why?

I have so much to say and not sure those I tell really want to hear it. So I thought a blog would allow me to get it all out.

I've devoted my adult life to animal rescue. I believe its my life's calling. I've seen the results of the worst of humans and the best. I've learned a lot over the years about people and animals. Lately one thing has really been bothering me. I say 'thing' because I can't believe 'its' human. There is a sports figure that is held in such high regard after displaying a kind of cruelty that only the most evil could perform. Please read the following PDF file and get informed:

http://www.usda.gov/oig/webdocs/BadNewzKennels.pdf

This esteemed athlete Michael Vick would take a dog that lost his fight and put jumper cables to its ears, turn on the car and throw the dog in the pool. Watch as it was being electrocute and trying to save itself. Claw marks are still on the pool from the struggling dogs. This is just one of several sadistic things this man has done.

I've noticed the biggest supporters are of his same race. I've been called racist for my views and lack of forgiveness for this evil doer. I actually think its reverse racism. I don't think there would be this much sympathy for the ass if he was white. I wish he was white and maybe he wouldn't still be playing football and held up as a role model instead of an example!

Poor baby Vick was raised poor in the south and this is what he saw. Well hell, most child molesters were raped as kids and that's what they saw. God doesn't say one sin is worse than the other. Sin is sin. To hell with all of them. I was beaten, raped, etc when young. I rescue abused animals now. So FUCK THE ABUSE EXCUSE and those who fall for it!!!

We all make mistakes but we all aren't evil. We may yell at a friend on a bad day, or bounce a check because we forgot to deposit the rent money. But we don't electrocute, hang or shoot our dog in the head because it failed to meet our expectations. Oh wait failed to kill another dog for money. For a man who already had millions. Here are actual copies of the court records:

http://www.thesmokinggun.com/file/michael-vick-indicted

As I type this blog a dog that was starved and beaten is sitting next to me. On the sofa in the living room is a brain damaged dog. He arrived with a head injury. His whole body hurt, he'd yelp just jumping off a step. He doesn't understand much but responds to kindness and love. There are other rescues who live with me. They have been badly beaten, starved, tortured. But still find the ability to trust and show love.

So if humans are so superior why can a animal recover and be gentle and kind. Vick already had it all when he was arrested. He didn't commit a crime in order to get money to eat. He has no excuse and I wish people would quit trying to give him one. And for the record he was charged with lessor crimes when he went to jail. None of which included the evil done to the animals. So he didn't pay his debt to society.

I'm so disappointed in the Humane Society of the United States. The team Vick plays for The Eagles donates a lot of money and suddenly HSUS supports Vick. It sickens me they can be bought. But as I've learned they aren't that helpful with rescues anyway. The ASPCA is actually the hands on organization for abused animals.

I see the results of evil, I hold and comfort the results of evil, I live with the results of evil. I will never understand how anyone could support an evil person simply because he can throw a ball or because of the color of his skin. It's not logical or humane.